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Wednesday, August 20, 2003

A Victum of Silence

*sigh* i dont know what to say...l8ly things are getting...confusing...and im not sure what to do...right now i dont know what to do...right now i cant do anything because im left waiting...and as i wait other things get stalled. i get stalled. i end up sitting here waiting till i can take action...wat do i do about this weekened? there are so many conflicting forces...and i cant finalize plans..not yet...cause, im left waiting....hm, patience, i guess some things never change. *sighs* but without a doubt, i wont let things bring me down...just gotta keep on moving....ah...well, i managed to waste time for a bit...l8z

~HoSHi*

Monday, August 18, 2003

The Beginning of the End

I am so damn happy that i got my braces off...but...grr...*shakes fist at retainer dat is presently inside its container* grrr i despise it! and until it's gone i will stil be trapped.....*glares into distance*

Linkin Park: Somewhere I Belong (wid a twist by Hoshi)


(When this began)
I had nothing to say too true, i just stared at my dad and blinked when my dentist said, "u need braces!"
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me uh...i got lost when i looked into my mouth and saw only silver and black
(I was confused) very, very, i wondered, "y do i need braces?!?!"
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind *nodz* many peoples feel the same 'bout their braces
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel uh....^-^''
(Nothing to lose) that's wat they told me, too bad i didnt kno bout the loss of freedom...and...and...candy!!!
Just stuck/ hollow and alone description of the braces...stuck to my teeth..da hollow too...and im sure dey feel alone..cause dey 3v1l
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own so damn true, right when i said, "sure, y not?"

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real i SO wanna heal, u dun wanna c how swelled they r man...i wanna feel freedom!
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long hell yea
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone) take them off! take them off! *waves banner*
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along yes yes, release! freedom!
Somewhere I belong o.o.....*sings* freeeedooommm

And I’ve got nothing to say well, i guess i dont,
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face *nodz* i was tempted...figured it mit of caused some damage and force them to take them out..
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind seriously, u never kno till it happens
(So what am I) a metallic-mouthed freak
What do I have but negativity ive got sore gums,
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me well...not many people notice...only when they see stuff in my braces...u.u
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own yes! yes it is! *tears*

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own i guess datz tru..live thro da pain...learn stuff...
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed nothing will ever taste good till they're gone...no joy in eating...*tears*
I will never be anything till I break away from me that old version of meeee
I will break away, I'll find myself today well, not today...but it starts today.

[Repeat Chorus] *wooo la woo la wooo*

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong *head bangs....* freeeddooomm
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong ...frreeeddoommmm
Somewhere I belong ffffrrrrreeeeeeddoooommm


*heehee, i was bored, >P ja!

~HoSHi*